He says FOREVER... like he means it. I laugh it off because I don't trust forever. Not even close to trusting forever. 

But... I am smitten with Lover.

I want to be with you now. Lying beside you, watching your breath, as your chest rises and falls. Wonder what you are dreaming and if it is about me. Smiling to myself that this is one of those rare moments. Special and sweet.

To feel your arms wrapped around me --tender embrace. To snuggle into your arms and feel safe... secure.

I love that you adore me.

But even more... I love that you want me.

That I belong to you.

You call me your girl.  My heart is overcome with the thought of being yours.

Collared at your feet. 

My body is yours...

My heart is yours...

Take me ...

Show me that forever exists...

that you are not just passing time, or passing through my life.  My hope is that forever exists, in a home with you and I in it. That we ARE forever. That what seems implausible, or scary is real and comfortable.

I dreamed of you last night...

felt your kiss

felt your touch

sighed as you caressed my belly

and kissed my neck.

cried out as you pulled my head back by my hair

and kissed my mouth

Awaking to silence...

Alone

 

Life is Funny...

 

and complicated... sometimes .. unusual.

 

It is beautiful and complex... 

under the stars ...

amongst the waves...

With just a roof over our head...

 

It is you and I

engaged in a kiss...

 an embrace ...

your arms enveloping me and all that I am

me wanting all that you are

don't stop...

feel me

feel you

feel

feel this

feel anything

just........................feel.

 

like a thief

you have

stolen

my attention

my thoughts

my heart.

Yet...

freely

I give them

to you

no hesitation

no qualms

no fear.

Surrendering

mytime

my attention

my will

my mind

my heart

 

Ive got your picture of me and you
You wrote I love you I love you too
I sit there staring and theres nothing else to do
Oh its in color your hair is brown
Your eyes are hazel and soft as clouds
I often kiss you when theres no one else around

Ive got your picture, Ive got your picture
Id like a million of them all round my cell
I asked the doctor to take your picture
So I can look at you from inside as well
Youve got me turning up and turning down
And turning in and turning round

Im turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so
Turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so
Im turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so
Turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so

Ive got your picture, Ive got your picture
Id like a million of them all round my cell
I want the doctor to take your picture
So I can look at you from inside as well
Youve got me turning up and turning down and turning in and turning round

Im turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so
Turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so
Im turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so
Turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so

No sex, no drugs, no wine, no women
No fun, no sin, no you, no wonder its dark
Everyone around me is a total stranger
Everyone avoids me like a psyched lone-ranger everyone

Thats why Im turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so
Turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so
Im turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so
Turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so

Turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so
Turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so
Turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so
(think so think so think so)
Turning japanese
I think Im turning japanese
I really think so