Is it possible? All of these feelings? All of this between us? What I feel for you? How I want you?
I am not questioning only incredulous that feelings can be this strong...
I want to share all of my secrets with you... All of the things I keep hidden from everyone else. Let you behind my walls ... behind my mask.
I have spent alot of my time... wasting time... my thoughts... my efforts.. my emotions... my tears... all spend on someone who did not love me... Who could have cared less...
I feel like I have wandered aimlessly... Road after miserable road, searching.. but never finding. Wanting but never getting... Needing but denied.
It is now I know that every step I have taken has lead me straight to you. If this is the case... then every heartbreak ~ every tear~every scar~every hurt was worth it.
I feel as though if I had nOT experienced these things, that I could not know fully how things SHOULD feel.. the way they are SUPPOSED to be. How they are meant to be.
I shake my head in amazement, knowing the man that you are, I am incredibly blessed to know your heart~to share in your life. It makes me crave more.
I want passion and heat... ordinary...silly and ...everyday normal. I would be happy to make love to you in a bare home with nothing but candles to illuminate our world.
I hear and feel your words against my heart ... next to my skin... in my head. I feel you in every fiber of my being.
As though the world were dim and now light fills it. I now can recognize who I am . Because now there is a fuller picture. of who I am and who I want to be.
I have no idea where our path together leads, I just know I want you on the road with me. I want to hold your hand now and when you are eighty... I want to tell you now ... and even then that you are my friend. That I am glad you are who you are, how precious you are, and how you caring for me made my world that much better.
I never want to imagine one day of not giggling with you. Don't want to miss a single laugh ... a single tear. I don't want to miss a thing.
I want to know every moment, want to give you all of my kisses, all of my heart... my body ... my mind ... my soul.
I want to be snuggled beside you and "all of ours" and just ... be.
I love your crativity, your heart~ each painstaking thought that slips from your pen... from your heart.
Every space between us.. seems to make me want to draw nearer to you.
I desire your sweetness... I hunger for all of those tender moments that belong only to me. Where your lips never leave my skin, where your fingers grip me and hold me tighter and harder. Til I am completely lost in you and you in me. Where do you end and I begin.. .this is where I want to be. Where my name is on your lips, and your breath is in the curve of my waist.
I feel like a bottomless pit... wanting more and more of you. As though I can not consume enough.
Fill me.
I want your voice to be the first I hear as I awake and the last one I hear before I slumber in your arms. I want you to feel everything I have in my heart for you... I want you to see it in my eyes... taste it on my lips ...hear it in my words.
I have played it so safe... not wanting to get hurt... finding it hard to trust... so afraid of making the same mistakes of my past. Not knowing how to share myself after being so broken. I had lost my way somewhere on the journey... Until you found me.
Now I feel reckless... and fearless.
I do not know how to navigate this territory... but I know I can with you on my team :) I am willing to discover each and every new turn.. every mountain and even in the scariest of valleys, I know that whether it be pleasure or pain.. joy or sorrow that we will always have each other to count on...
No matter the capacity
friend
lover
deeper and stronger
I am yours ;)
